I must confess

So here is a confession… To those who know me well and those who don’t.

This is something I know in my head but struggle with in my heart:

You don’t have to live your life the way other people expect you to.”  ~ Chris Guillebeau

There is something I have been struggling with… Me… My story, my purpose, my uniqueness. I have been trying to bring me out but as a better version of me than exists…

All my life I have felt different, a little bit on the outside. Often I have revelled in it. Often I have hidden in it and sometimes I have been alone and scared in it. Most of the time I’ve only known it as where I am to be. I have always wanted to be part of ‘the gang’ but shied away whenever I got a chance, later often kicking myself and sometimes being grateful. The thing is we are all different.

I’ve started an amazing journey of self rediscovery and in that I have let go of a lot of baggage and to reconnect with the person I feel is inside but whom has always been distant. I have been having my own internal X-Factor auditions for how I will enter the stage but been getting a lot of boos and declination from my own internal Simon Cowell.

The thing is, all the attempts at finding this self have resulted in trying to get dressed and made up for a show. But there is no show.

I have started to realise that to be a better me, I have to start to be me, just me.

To be authentic is to be present and to come exactly as who you are. Warts and all. We are all too fat, too thin, too spotty, too wonky, too hairy, too shy, too cute or too ugly. We are, however and more importantly, the beautiful creation we are meant to be – like it or not. So why not let go, accept it, learn to like it and maybe in that acceptance you will grow to be more of what you want to be.

Who am I to deny me if my aim is to show you not to deny you?

I woke up this morning and realised that while I am a little too fat, often a little too grumpy, quite impatient, cannot manage money and have low self esteem.

But, I also realised I am very fortunate, incredibly loved and I have so much to give. I am a fast learner and I connect really well with people. I have lived a life inside the rules and I have lived outside the rules.

I have mentored and coached some massive change-makers and risk-takers and I have worked with people I admire deeply for their conviction and passion. Now it is time for me to bring me back to the table and offer me, just me, to you.

I am who I am,
I can’t be anyone else.
Time to stop trying!
~David Scholtz

Do you want to join me in rediscovering who you are as I discover who I am? Let’s go on a journey together!

Hello world – Namaste!

The divine spark within me bows to the divine spark within you!

2 Comments on “I must confess”

  1. “I woke up this morning and realised that while I am a little too fat, often a little too grumpy, quite impatient, cannot manage money and have low self esteem.”

    That’s the way you feel about yourself but not the way others feel about yourself. You can always change those things if you feel like it.

    I like this blog post, a lot.

    Namaste.

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